Hey old man how u doing up there, so I’m gonna be honest things are getting harder, everyday I’m painting on this fake smile and an act to show people I’m happy when really I’m breaking massively, I can’t cope anymore I am really trying but I’m struggling, my life feels like it is falling apart little by little, my PTSD has gotten out of control with every little thing I’m scared, I feel like I’m working my butt off but for nothing as never have a life or any excitement in my life, me and scott have literally struggled with each other to the point I have asked him to leave and move out! Why can’t u be here I need some advise! I’m literally on a daily struggle right now, and my patience with dealing with it is getting smaller,my grandad is so ill yet I can’t do anything or even see him, HELP!! I miss u guys like crazy, is it good up there I’m guessing a lot easier, who said grow up and become an adult ay! How my little girl doing, everyday I’m wishing and hoping that we could have another one of her in our arms, please come back I need you 😭 love you so much, miss you more than words can imagine, give our little girl and nan a huge squeeze from us love and miss u all xxxx jenna xxxx
scott matthews2010
19th January 2020